Well, the meditation started off on the right track. I chose my Nana (maternal grandmother) as the loving and wise person to focus on for the meditation. I spent the summers with her in San Diego and always had a wonderful time. I was devastated by her death. She is the only close person to me that has passed away so I could not think of anyone else. Later I listened again to the meditation and realized you could use a person that was still living as well. Anyways, like I said the meditation started off well but then I started to think about the fact that she had been an alcoholic and not a very good mother to my mom. This got me totally off focus. I guess I should have not picked such a controversial person but I really loved her. Once I came to terms with the fact that she was human and made some mistakes but for as far as I was concerned made up for it by being a great grandmother I started to focus again. That was when the dog started to scratch at the door. He was very persistent but I got through the meditation. Next time I think I will use Mother Teresa as my person to focus on and put the dog outside! This meditation did not do much for me since I was not able to properly focus but meditating in general has seemed to really slow down my over reacting at my children which I used to do in the past.
The statement "one cannot lead another where one has not gone himself" means to me that you need to lead by example. How can you help your clients experience human flourishing when you have not experienced it yourself? Like with most things you kind of need to be able to know how to do something to be able to teach someone else. Plus to be the best health care professional possible you need to be at a level of optimal health.
Merrell, it is nice you chose your Nana as your person to focus on for your meditation, my father was an alcoholic too and he passed many years ago. and although he struggled with it for yrs I know that he is in a better place and this disease is not with him anymore.
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Merrell,
ReplyDeleteI had a similar experience as I was thinking about my dad and when it came to the part about hear his speech or something I got off track. My dad cursed like a sailor and I had to choose someone different so I could get through the exercise. I do find I enjoy if I am not distracted but the simplest of things can get me off track. This is my own inability to reel my mind in once it is running off.
I am hopeful I will continue to grow and control this run away mind of mine…
I agree with you on the fact we must lead by example. Great blog…
:) Sandi
I couldn't focus this time either, and I did not have any distractions. I don't know what the problem was! Sometimes I think I just have SO MUCH in my head that there isn't room for slowing down or like, the components aren't compatible! I also have a short fuse when it comes to my children. The only thing that can break the spell, for me, is to run and hide or block them out. Don't get me wrong, I love them, but sometimes I just need two minutes for me! I know I'm not at optimal health, but I think I can help others to be, so IDK if I believe in that saying so much, but it's a nice one to think about. :)
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